Archive for June, 2008

If I do say so myself…

June 29, 2008

So I am not going to lie, when it comes to my YouTube videos, I am rather proud of myself. This may seem stuck up, but I have had some amazing things happen to me through uploading these and met some really amazing people (not to mention that one time where I got sent 24 cans of Mountain Dew! hehe!) as a direct result of how good they are. Anyways as a most recent of achievements, one of the earliest videos I ever made has just broken over the 1,000,000 view mark! Woop woop! I figured that in celebration of such an achievement, I would post said video here for my blog followers to have a gander at. It’s a fan video for the film starring Mandy Moore and Shane West – ‘A Walk To Remember’


Landon: Do you love me?
[she nods]
Landon: Will you do something for me, then?
Jamie: [smiles] Anything.
Landon: Will you marry me?
– A Walk To Remember

the good, the bad, and the bruised…

June 29, 2008

So the last day or so has been a weird one for bad news. I found out that my baby cousin got hit by a car yesterday, and he got himself sent to hospital with a fractured skull. He’s ok, but still it was a rather big shock for the family needless to say really…  As if that wasn’t enough, I then spent the evening arguing with my mother about the most stupid and pointless of things, were I got ridiculously close to shouting out “Well I have a girlfriend!” just to spite her – not that I did. I guess it all ended ok. After a couple of shouting matched, some crying and then some apologies and “I love you”s, we ended on ok terms and generally went to bed unangry – which is always a good thing.

Today then certainly made up for it. I had a proper father-daughter day with a good ol’ shop in M&S where I tried to get my dad to buy some ‘trendy’ new shirts, where he spend an hour complaining that these made him look too old, while these made him look like he was trying to hard to look young! Bless…  The day did then improve however as he then treated me to lunch out, and we then had a little look around for some car ideas for me now that I’m going to have to get out and about in the big bad ‘real’ world! We then came home to do some good old fashion manual labour (there was a door that needed taken off its hinges, sanded and then put back), watched a film   …and then the real work began. That which kept me from my friend’s birthday – sorry again!

Oh and the final piece of bad news of course – Hannah’s phone has broken. If anyone can think of another way of making a long distance relationship hard, please, keep those ideas to yourself…


So usually I’d have a quote here that suits the blog entry topic – but this one is just plain funny! 

Tom Tucker: A bit of breaking news. A local family is forced out of their home by ghosts. Who are they gonna call?
Diane Simmons: (sighs) Ghostbusters, Tom.
Tom Tucker: No, Diane. Their insurance company. That’s just stupid what you said.
– Family Guy

Stoney and Hengey

June 22, 2008

I went with my housemate Oliver on Friday night to spend the solstice at Stonehenge. Many people may think I am insane to travel 3 hours, sit at a a pile of stones for another 5 and a half hours to see the sunrise, and then travel 3 hours back. I in fact had an amazing time! I was possibly one of the best longest days I have ever had! =)

Leaving Swansea at around 7pm, we got to Stonehenge at about 11pm after a quick pit stop on the way. We then decided that seeing as it was raining we’d wait in his car for a while for it to clear up – turns out this wait lasted slightly longer than we expected as we ended up there until about 3am! haha! Surprisingly we didn’t get bored in the slightest, and that was even without any napping at all! Once it got to 3am, we decided it was about time to make a move rain or no rain, and so took the half hour or so trek to the stones – seeing some rather interesting characters along the way, includingone group of guys yelling “Don’t do it! Turn back while you can! It’s not worth it!!”  Needless to say however, after such a wait, we were determined to continue…

Once we got to the stones, we had a little walk around and managed to battle through an apparent figure of 30,000 people to actually touch some of the stones – they felt very…stoney! We then found a nice little patch to set down our binbag (complimentary on arrival! ha!), and then sit under my umbrella- ella-ella to see the sunrise. This event was at around 4.50am, and tbh, wasn’t quite what I was expecting considering how overcast it was. But despite this, we had a cracker of a time and needless to say, went immediately to sleep when we got back to Olly’s at around 5.20am!

On our return to Swansea, Olly and I decided to keep the festivities going and headed out to our local bar to knock back a few cider and blacks! From the moment of my 4th, I must be honest, the night became a bit of a blur! I remember playing old rock classics on Olly’s vinyl and singing at the top of our lungs, doing some things that were perhaps not the best of ideas, trying to watch Dr Who, and then the rest is anyones guess! I think I had a good time though… :p


“Always do sober what you said you’d do drunk.  That will teach you to keep your mouth shut.”  – Ernest Hemingway

When I finally stop pretending…

June 19, 2008

I have decided – Life’s too short not to tell people that you love them.

I think that if I died today or tomorrow (please not! – touch wood), at least Hannah would have known how much I loved and cared for her. I love her so much and care about her so much, and I have no problems expressing it. I think that love needs to be expressed as often as possible. I think that random gestures and spontaneous acts (though cheesy to some) are the key to keeping each other on your toes, and just reminding each other how much you care. I think your partner SHOULD know how deeply you feel.

There is of course one problem with this – there are certain times when I do have problems expressing it. When I am with my family for example, we have to return to being la-de-da, happy as Larry (who is Larry anyway?!), just bestest buds – it’s driving me mad. I know what the risks of being in any relationship are. I know that sometimes you have to keep secrets for the greater good, that you could have your heart broken at any time, and that they can be generally misunderstood by the outside world… but that doesn’t make it any less hard. 

One day I know I will tell my parents about everything. But the problem is, the waiting is killing me. I guess one of my greatest fears is that Hannah will get tired of waiting for me …I realise that that is highly unlikely in reality – but when has fear ever been rational? Ugh, I don’t know! Has life always been this difficult, or am I just late onto this wand-wagon?

So to tell or not to tell …or more when to tell – I guess that’s the question that will change everything! I just hope that the answer won’t destroy everything I care about…


“Trying to figure this out,
Its not as easy as it seems,
Changing stories, changing lanes,
I need some stability,
Coming out into the open is playing on my mind,
I’m not one to hide away,
But this is harder than it seems.”
Working Class Heroes – When you finally stop pretending

Race for Life

June 17, 2008

A little over two years ago my Great Aunt died of Cancer. I was with her when she died, and it was heartbreaking. Since this, I have known a few of my friends to have relatives lose a similar battle. As a result of these events, I decided this year that I was going to do something to try and help fight this horrible disease – entering my mother and I into Cardiff’s 2008 ‘Race for Life’.

Many of you that read this will not know me or my Aunt, but perhaps you know someone that has died/is fighting/is a survivor of Cancer. If this is the case and you feel you would like to contribute to the cause, please sponsor me online HERE or join a race local to you.

Let’s fight this disease together. We can make a difference.

 My Mother and I - Please sponsor us!

“The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it.”  – C.C. Scott


June 16, 2008

So after a few days at home with nothing to do I have apparently become boring enough to be applying for ‘real’ jobs, being in bed by 12 and feeling the need to go for some kind of jog …or something. It’s all very strange for a few reasons:

1) I don’t want a job …I’d in fact like to never grow up – please?!
2) Falling asleep with your mobile in your hand before it even reaches midnight is so uncool – and lets be fair, there’s nothing cooler than me *cough*
3) I don’t do exercise …I’d avoid a brief stroll if I could, let alone the prospects of a jog!

All in all, I feel that being away from the sea air has affected my mental composure, and so as of tonight I am returning to Swansea for a week or so of sanity (hopefully!).


NB. I would actually quite like the job I’m applying for, so forget the part about the Peter Pan complex and wish me luck yeah?!


“Adults are always asking little kids what they want to be when they grow up because they’re looking for ideas.” – Paula Poundstone

When it rains…

June 13, 2008

…it not only pours, but there are power cuts, muddy dresses and angry people in tents!

This was the sum of Swansea Uni’s summer ball this year! It rained …alot! It was somewhat ridiculous as there were hundreds of people all trying to clamber for cover under a powerless tent. You would think that in one of the wettest areas in the country, there may have been a little more indoor area for such an event, but alas, the night ended at around 10pm after getting so bored of rain, no music and the fact that the need to pee would have meant a trek to the other side of the field! Ah well…at least the evening was salvaged by a warm bath and some other hot and steamy moments! He he!

…next year maybe?

“So go on and let the rain pour, I’ll be all you need and more…” – Rihanna (Umbrella)

Juliet & Juliet

June 10, 2008’s approaching midnight, and I’m awaiting the arrival of a smurf. Yes, that’s right, a smurf! Tonight the Swansea Oceana is attempting some kind of ludicrous attempt at a world record, with some regard to the most number of smurfs in a building ..or something! Ergo, in true fresher style, Hannah is a smurf. This means that sometime in the early hours of the morning I will have a drunken smurf, that I will probably need to wash (as I refuse to get blue paint on my sheets!), sober up and put to bed – love it! lol!

So today has been a rather interesting day. First of all I had a very brief (just how I like them) shopping experience with my need to buy a bag for the Summer Ball on Wednesday. Then came a lovely little jaunt into Uni to pick up one of my essays (I got a 1st! Score!), and then over to Hannah’s for a bit of a cuddle, and crackers ..twas rather lovely jubbly! Then a stroll over to my good friend Kirsty’s for veggie bolognaise (tres yummy) and a good ol’ chat.

More exciting that all of this however was the 7 hours it took me to book the LGBT’s ‘cutest couple’ (that’s me and Hann btw! Woop!) a Summer holiday! We are now officially off to Lake Garda (Italy) in September for 10 days and it is going to be absolutely amazing! In fact, I cannot wait to spend 10 days alone with this girl! We can show them the real story of Juliet and Juliet babe! 😀

“Oh, what’s in a name? That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet.” – Juliet (Romeo & Juliet)

Love police…

June 5, 2008

This is for my friend. I hope she understands…

Sometimes I lie awake, wondering if I’ll make it out of here,
But the wind blows round my heels, so I stay
I remember lying there, wishing I could be someone else
Trying to find somehow to get away.

If I asked him nicely d’you think he’s show me how to fly,
‘cos the dust has weighed my wings down, and I’m too tired to try.

Sometimes I sit here hearing voices in my head
I try to understand, to make some sense.
I wonder if I had to, would I lie to save myself?
A plea of guilty, but self defence.

If I asked him nicely d’you think he’d show me how?
I’m sure he’s out there listening, but he’s too tied up right now to try

Try, all of my sins
‘cos I can’t stop now,
Just don’t leave me behind.

Sometimes I lie awake, wondering if I’ll get out of here,
But the words stick in my throat and I stay.
I remember lying there, wishing I could be someone else,
Trying to find somehow to get away

If I asked him nicely d’you think he’s show me how to fly,
‘cos the dust has weighed my wings down, and I’m too tired to try.

The tribulations of freedom.

June 5, 2008

Well, how productive my time since handing in my last piece of Uni work has been. I’ve finished two books, seen a play, become an Olympic Gold snowboarder, hung out with my nan, and watched enough tv to give me a headache. The tribulations of freedom eh?!

After being asked for the millionth time yesterday what it is that I’d like to do with my future, I decided to do something about it. Nothing conventional you understand like plan anything, look for a job, or reflect deeply upon my desires, but by writing a blog that proved my education had not been a waste. Something to demonstrate that I had reached a ‘higher’ intelligence, that the last three years had not simply been a joy ride, and that my parents money was well (ish) spent. I decided I would do this by sharing my wonderful dissertation revelation (seeing as I’ve also been asked more than enough times what it entailed ..usually followed by blank stares) to the world! 

Then however, I got thinking. What if by publishing parts of my dissertation on the Internet, I was actually setting myself up to be accused for plaguirism? Considering how seriously dissertations are taken, imagine if a few key strokes into Google meant that my blog revealed my work, and then the University (not always being that bright) decided I had stolen chunks of my diss from some poor girl’s blog. Just imagine! So..being the worrier (and probably overthinker) that I am, I decided against such a post.

This is then where dusting off the PS2 to play SSX (snowboarding game) allowed me to become a gold medalist (at the cost of two very sore thumbs), reading two books (‘Fahrenheit 451’ and ‘Bad Luck and Trouble’ – both excellent btw) and watching an enormous amount of tv alleviated much of the boredom. Seeing a play then consisted of my brother’s A-level drama exam (he was so good he made me cry!), and seeing my nan …well, that was just good ol’ fashioned family spirit!


There’ll be no more hiding in shadows of fear.
There’ll be no more chains to hold you.
The future is yours – you hold the key.
And there are no walls with freedom.
[Phil Collins – Dance Into The Light]