Archive for July, 2008

Guess who’s back?!

July 29, 2008

Well my my hasn’t it been a long time! I do apologise my fellow bloggers, but alas the life outside of the cyber called and I became somewhat distracted! The last two weeks you see have been the most amazing ever in many ways. First of all it was the big Graduation not to mention the ball, and just because it’s good fun, here’s a picture of me looking like an idiot –

and then a little less of an idiot…

  

…having a beautiful woman on your arm does help such things along mind you!

I then had the pleasure of my girl’s company in Swansea for a few days where we had alot of …catching up to do! Hehe! Then it was back to my home town for a couple of days where Hann met some of my old school friends and spend some time with my family (she got around to my mum, dad, brother, nan, gramp and other nan …slut!) We had a nice couple of days out actually, and even got around to seeing Mamma Mia! in the cinema which was pretty good.

Tuesday then brought the dynamic duo to travel to London, where I in turn met one of Hannah’s best friends (who approves of me! woop!) and her little cute next door neighbours who we had a random day in the sun with full of pools, Disney and smiles! Other than that we generally filled our time with Disney films, Buffy and …romance! Quote of the trip I feel may be –

Anya: Will you still make me waffles when we’re married?
Xander: No, I’ll only make them for myself. But, by California law, you will own half of them…

I got back from London then yesterday after many tears of farewell. Since my return I ave been pretty pro-active however as I today attended an assessment centre for a job I applied for a few weeks back. I think it was one of the scarier experiences I have had, but even if I don’t get the job it’ll be excellent experience ..and to be honest I’m feeling quite good about things!

Oh and how could I forget! I also watched The Dark Knight a couple of days ago, and it was amazing! I think you should all go and see it! I must admit I thought I may get a little sad seeing Heath on screen knowing he is no longer with us, but I actually held it together pretty well – until this part anyways…

The Joker: You just couldn’t let me go could you? This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object. You truly are incorruptible aren’t you? You won’t kill me out of some misplaced sense of self-righteousness, and I won’t kill you, because you’re just too much fun. I think you and I are destined to do this forever.

All I could think was – “No you’re not…”
RIP Heath

Well I guess that leaves you pretty good and caught up with all things me related! Until next time…

 

Batman: What did you do?
The Joker: I took Gotham’s white knight, and lowered him to our level. It wasn’t hard. Y’see, madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little…push.
– The Dark Knight

Fairytale…

July 11, 2008

Now, don’t be mistaken by the sadness of the following words as I assure you I am in fact in a very good mood today! I had a rather enjoyable shift at work last night, with some awesome texts and a phone call, then waking up today I received possibly one of the best letter of my life! So all in all, I’m purely posting these lyrics as they just made me laugh!!

 

Cinderella’s on her bedroom floor she’s got a
Crush on the guy at the liquor store
Cause Mr. Charming don’t come home anymore and she forgets why she came here.

Sleeping Beauty’s in a foul mood for shame she says
None for you dear prince, I’m tired today.
I’d rather sleep my whole life away than have you keep me from dreaming

CHORUS
I don’t care for your fairytale
You’re so worried ’bout the maiden,
though you know she’s only waiting on the next best thing

Snow White is doing dishes again cause what else can you do
With seven itty bitty men?
Sends them to bed and she calls up a friend, says will you meet me at midnight.

The tall blonde lets out a cry of despair says
Would have cut it myself if I knew men could climb hair
I’ll have to find another tower somewhere and keep away from the windows.

CHORUS
I don’t care for your fairytale
You’re so worried ’bout the maiden,
though you know she’s only waiting on the next best thing

Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom, man made up a story
Said that I should believe him
Go and tell your white knight that he’s handsome in hindsight
but I don’t want the next best thing
So I sing and hold my head down and I break these walls ’round me
Can’t take no more of your fairytale love

CHORUS
I don’t care for your fairytale
You’re so worried bout the maiden,
though you know she’s used to waiting spent her whole life being graded on the
sanctity of patience and a dumb appreciation
The story needs some mending and a better happy ending ‘cause I don’t want the next best thing no no I don’t want the next best thing.
Fairytale – Sara Bareilles

 

Personally I feel like I’m writing my own fairytale, and as long as it ends happily ever after, it should be a good one! =)

 

Rachel: Everyone promises you happily ever after… but life turns into a different kind of fairy tale.
– Imagine Me and You

Oh and here’s another just for Hannah:

Rachel: She’s gay…
Heck: As a tennis player.
– Imagine Me and You

Smile time!!

July 8, 2008

So I’m back from my little family trip to Devon, and I feel that I’ve come back happy and refreshed! This quite surprised me actually as I spent the 5 days as part bar staff/kitchen staff/babysitter to a 4yr old, with zero time to myself! I guess the big boost came because Hannah has a phone now so we have been regularly talking again, and so i am much much happier! PLUS..who saw the tennis final?! Now that was worth smiling over.. ;p

I’ve also finally heard back from Edinburgh and I actually got the steward job at the MGEITF! (That’s the International Television Festival!) Woop! I even booked my flght today and it’s going to be awesome =D

More importantly than that though, there is less than a week now until I am graduating!! Plus that means it is less than a week until I can see all my friends and my girl again for the first time in a month! It’s going to be quite an event – and definitely worth some smile time!! Oh, and I watched ‘Across the Universe’ the other night and it was amazing! …and I’m not even a fan of the Beatles! haha!

 

Army Sergeant: Is there any reason you shouldn’t be in this man’s Army?
Max: I’m a cross-dressing homosexual pacifist with a spot on my lung.
Army Sergeant: As long as you don’t have flat feet.
– Across the Universe

Clear as mud…

July 4, 2008

So you wait for something all day, and then when you finally get it, you don’t want it

…what’s up with that?

Today has just been one of those days. It started terribly, and is going to end that way too. Just to make things more fabulous, as of 9am today (seeing as it’s officially past midnight now) I’m going to be shipping off to Devon for a few days, away from Internet, people, phones and freedom of speech – sounds great eh?! *insert sarcasm*

 

Let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
Blurry – Puddle of Mudd

tears, cheers and what feels like years…

July 3, 2008

So it has been a weird couple of days… again! First of all I got my University results, and had the pleasant surprise of finding out that I will be graduating in 2 weeks (10 days actually..) with a First Class Honours. Don’t ask me how I managed it, because I’m really not sure! Needless to say, my family has never been prouder – I just hope they enjoy the calm before the storm…

The other ‘cheer’ in my life was that yesterday I completed the 5k Race for Life. It was actually an awesome day, and my cousin and I walked it in under an hour (56mins), so we were very proud of ourselves. We also raised a nice chunk of money for cancer research between us, and beat our mothers to the finish line (easily), so that topped off the event really for us!

So I guess now that the ‘cheers’ are out of the way, here comes the ‘tears’. Well these come in a few different ways really. First of all my brother told me yesterday that him and his bf of over a year are going to be splitting up. He’s walking round the house like a zombie a constant tear in his eye and I just don’t know what to do for him and it’s killing me seeing him like this. James came over here today for them to talk it out, but I can’t see any improvement. My brother just finished crying to me telling me that he doesn’t know what he wants…he’s got so many people he is trying to please with his decision and I can see that it is really taking its toll on him.. 

Secondly then I have to face the fact that it has now been about 19 days since I last saw Hannah. I feel like a bit of a zombie myself at the moment because of this, and I don’t really know how to express it. I’m sure there are many of you that would roll your eyes at this, but I really feel like there is half of me missing. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend and lover all in one go and I don’t know quite how to handle it and what to do with myself. What is worse is that I still have another 10 or so days to go until we are together, and now that she doesn’t even have a phone to text me and our phone calls have to be really short between work schedules, family issues and cost problems – it’s just so unfair. Don’t get me wrong I knew I was going to miss her, but this is just something else. I feel like at any moment I could just randomly burst into tears (I actually did last night which kind of led to the ‘I feel so..’ post). I feel like I am not quite living, like it’s not quite real, like I’m in a kind of trance… I feel strange. Its been days and it feels like years. I guess 6.30pm July 14th just can’t come quickly enough…  I love you Hannah.

 

Williams: Well done on your results Laura! You’re so smart… 
Me: [uncomfortable laugh] Thanks.
Williams: I don’t know where you get that from…certainly not your mother!
Mum: Funnily enough, lots of people have been saying that…

I feel so…

July 3, 2008

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

‘Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over
Let’s start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

‘Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over

Let’s start over

I Feel So – Box Car Racer