Archive for September, 2009

I’m just…

September 29, 2009

…tired. I’m so, so tired.
All my energy is spent.
I can’t take this for much longer.

Ruined me…

September 27, 2009

There’s someone who wants to be with me, and wants to ‘define’ what we are. I like her, I do, but I just can’t do it. I can’t open myself up again and get hurt …I can’t.

I will be the last to let you down
All your fears and doubts are hovering above you like a cloud
And the water’s rising
Now I can’t breathe
Nothing’s how it’s supposed to be
How did you do this to me?
Locked inside your heart shaped box

I can’t be with anyone
Since I felt our worlds collide
It’s like I most died
The way you make me feel
I’m changing, got me breaking down inside
Baby can’t you see
You ruined me for life

    You Ruined Me ~ JC Chasez

I can’t even talk to you anymore. The past just feels like lies.

Topic secret…

September 27, 2009



and even though the next has no words, for some reason it just spoke to me… you?



September 25, 2009

…having a blog makes me sad, because it sits there looking at me, waiting for me to write something on it like an expectant child looking for affection from an indifferent parent. I have nothing to say right now… *sigh*

Oh wait! I finished reading another book – The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold.
It was shocking. Don’t bother.
What is it with books and rape eh?! I’m sick of it. Sick of reading about it/watching it/thinking about it. Ugh!

Just wait for the film to come out.
Peter Jackson can only make it better…

…one would hope.

Shhh it’s a secret!

September 20, 2009



Make my dreams

September 18, 2009

Ok, so there are two reasons for this post. First of all, I finally found a video for the scene in 500 Days of Summer I was talking about with the big musical number, and secondly I asked that girl from the other week out …and she said yes!! Woop!

What I want, you’ve got
And it might be hard to handle
But like the flame that burns the candle
The candle feeds the flame
What I’ve got’s full stock of thoughts
and dreams that scatter
You pull them all together
And how, I can’t explain
But You make my dreams come true
On a night when bad dreams become a screamer
When they’re messin’ with the dreamer
I can laugh it in the face
Twist and shout my way out
And wrape yourself around me
‘Cause I ain’t the way that you found me
I’ll never be the same
‘Cause You make my dreams come true
I’m down on the daydream
That sleepwalk should be over by now
I know that You make my dreams come true!

You Make My Dreams ~ Hall & Oates

Screw Hollywood!

September 15, 2009

Ok, so after watching what could be classed as a few ‘indie’ films recently, I’ve decided that hollywood is to blame for people’s lack of appreciation. The move industry seems to have caused a kind of formula that films have to stick to, and if they don’t, they are immediately seen as something different to be disliked. Last night a friend and I watched Adventureland which we both thought was amazingly good, meanwhile 4 people actually got up and left half way through! Similarly, I reviewed 500 Days of Summer a few posts ago saying how great it was, but since then I’ve had nothing but people tell me what a terrible film it was and how they didn’t ‘get’ it. What’s going on with society today that as soon as a comedy is released which the humour isn’t smack-you-in-the-face obvious, and a romantic-comedy that is only subtly funny and isn’t a ‘love’ story, they freak out and dislike them?! People need to watch some more films with me ..I’ll sort them out! Rant over.

That time of the week…

September 13, 2009

PostSecret time!!
Two good ones this week…




September 12, 2009

Now the party´s over
I´m so tired
Then I see you coming
Out of nowhere
Much communication in a motion
Without conversation or a notion
When the samba takes you
Out of nowhere
And the backgrounds fading
Out of focus
Yes the picture changing
Every moment
And your destination
You don´t know it
When you bossa nova
There´s no holding
Would you have me dancing
Out of nowhere

       Avalon ~ Roxy Music

Last night I pulled a girl called …Avalon. No word of a lie! She was quite like this song actually …coming out of nowhere at the end of the night to dance with me …and possibly the hottest girl that I’ve ever been with – good times!! 😉 As per my last post, imagine You Make My Dreams playing as I walk through the streets of Cardiff…

500 Days of Summer

September 11, 2009

Q. Have you seen this film?

A. 1.    Yes I have                    – well done!
A. 2.    No I haven’t                – why the hell not?!


The basic gist of this film is – Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn’t.
This film sits easily in my top 3 of the year. The characters are well acted and loveable, the soundtrack is amazing, and even from the very beginning of the film, you know the story is going to be quirky yet ‘real’. Here’s how it starts for example…

Author’s Note: The following is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.
Especially you Jenny Beckman.

I think this film also reins true for me, because I can relate completely to the lead Tom. The way he seems to see the world and act is pretty much exactly the way I am. Two scenes in particular in this film hit home with me (these are probably up there with some of my favourite movie scenes ever now…) , the first being after he sleeps with Summer for the first time, and it turns a little musical as an ensemble dance down the street to You Make My Dreams – Hall & Oates. The second then is where he meets Hannah Summer months after she’s dumped him, and on the right hand of the screen plays his ‘Expectations’ of how the meeting will go, and then the left plays the ‘Reality’ …needless to say, they don’t exactly match up!

All in all, this is a really great film which makes sense of those relationships where an unnameable ‘something’ goes wrong, and then the struggle to deal with it …it’s also changed the way I’m going to behave in IKEA forever!!


Tom: She took a giant shit on my face. Literally.
Alison: Literally?
Tom: Well, no, not literally. That’s disgusting.