Archive for November, 2009

Best kept secret…

November 29, 2009

Also, the irony of the picture in the first secret on the site this week did not escape me…

(it was on the wall while I told you that I’d think things over for a few days, even though I knew I’d already made my mind up…)

Heartbreaker

November 25, 2009

So I turns out I’m now getting quite the reputation as a heartbreaker. It seems that people cannot resist my charms, and then when I warn them that I’m not an easy person to be with these days, that I can’t be relied on for commitment and that I have a severe case of ‘grass-is-always-greener’, they still seem surprised when I let them down. Granted, I thought I’d found something a little different this time …I mean, it went pretty great for almost a month. But again, after a while, things just started unravelling. I felt uncomfortable where I was, who I was with. The spark had gone, and I just didn’t want to be involved any more, and it started eating at me inside. I don’t even really care that she thinks that I’m a bitch right now …she’ll get over it. All I know, is that if I had kept things going for any longer she would have been the one that was hurt far worse (she told me she loved me after a week of being together, come on…!).

It’s actually kind of strange, because I was always more associated with the heartbroken in the past, and so getting a taste of the other side is really quite strange. I understand why she feels so upset and angry towards me, because a year ago that was me. But I guess that it’s also made me appreciate that sometimes, no matter how much you know you are going to hurt the other person, and no matter how much you care about them, when you just don’t feel right in your own skin anymore, and your relationship isn’t making you happy – then what else are you supposed to do?

I don’t particularly expect her to forgive me, I know that she sees my decision as out of the blue and a betrayal, but if you’re not happy after knowing each other barely a month, then is there really any point? It’s sad, but all the clichés that are used “it’s not you it’s me” and “let’s be friends” seem to be things that naturally come out. But then I guess I told a friend of mine once that they are clichés for a reason!

I guess this blog really was more just about understanding. I think that I can connect a little more to why people end relationships now. I never understood it before …not really.  Now, I understand…

Can you keep a secret?!

November 22, 2009

I see your shadow hanging over me

November 21, 2009

All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when I had my best friend
I don’t know how we ended up here
I don’t know but it’s never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hanging over me
And your face, I can see…

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you
Cuz I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathIng now…
Until I’m set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
About the places we would go when we were off
And all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
And how you cried when you saw
The first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
The branches hanging over me?
Can you see
The love you left inside of me?
In my face
Can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz I’m still here breathing now
I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
Until I’m set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you’re not coming back
And you’re not coming back
No-oo… No-oo… No
You’re not coming back…
You’re not coming back…

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
And I’m still here…

Cuz I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
And I’m still here…

Cuz I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
I’m still here breathing now…
And I’m still here…

But you’re not coming back.
And you’re not coming back.
Cuz you’re not coming back
Until I’m set free
Go quiet through the trees.

Through the Trees ~ Low Shoulder

It’s hard to say…

November 19, 2009

Do you remember what you were doing exactly a year ago today?!
I do…

a) Planning a romantic day out
b) Having my heart torn apart
c) Watching my brother in Wizard of Oz
d) All of the above

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My worries weighed the world how I used to be
And everything (I’m cold) seems a plague in me
And it’s hard to say how I feel today
A years gone by, and I cried

It’s hard to say that I was wrong
It’s hard to say I miss you
Since you’ve been gone it’s not the same

It’s hard to say I held my tongue
It’s hard to say if only
Since you’ve been gone it’s not the same

Worse than the fear it’s the lie you told a thousand times before
Worse than the fear it’s the knife
And it’s hard to say how I feel today
A years gone by, and I cried

It’s hard to say that I was wrong
It’s hard to say I miss you
Since you’ve been gone it’s not the same

It’s hard to say I held my tongue
It’s hard to say if only
Since you’ve been gone I’m not the same

It’s hard to say that I was wrong
(God, it’s hard to say)
It’s hard to say that I miss you
(God, it’s hard to say)
Since you’ve been gone
I’m not the same

It’s Hard to Say – The Used

Why is everything so confusing?

November 17, 2009

I’m standing on the bridge
I’m waiting on the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No foot steps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are, but I
I’m with you
I’m with you

I’m looking for a place
I’m searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
‘Cause nothing’s going right
And everything’s a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home?

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are, but I
I’m with you
I’m with you

Oh

Why is every thing so confusing?
Maybe Im just out of my mind

Yeah yeah yeah…

It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
But I
I’m with you
I’m with you

I’m With You ~ Avril Lavigne

Ahhh Sundays…

November 15, 2009

9th November :)

November 11, 2009

Laura Perry

* has a new girlfriend.

* is very happy.

* is sad that the new other half is going to Scotland for a few days  …what’s so great about Tegan and Sara anyways …lesbo ;p

Twitter Secret

November 8, 2009

PostSecret on Twitter

“Music sounds different ever since you kissed me. I can’t wait to see what else. . .”

The end of the tunnel…

November 6, 2009

What is it that one day you see something, and then the next day that you look you see something completely different? You going from being level headed and marginally interested, to waking up and your first thought is wanting to speak to them …to truly caring about them. What is that feeling? It’s crazy…

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I ain’t never gunna let nothing get in the way
You play your cards all right you’re an Ace
You make my nights so bright you’re my days
You took me out of the maze
You are number one

See I don’t understand how you’re number one
When it was just a fling before now, you’re the one
See all I did was blink twice from my homie to my only
Number one

You lift me off the ground
I always want you around
I ain’t gunna let nothing get in the way
I’ll never let nothing get in the way

Tinchy Stryder ~ Number 1